Mrs. Didymus had not been herself for at least a week. We thought it might be the flu. I don't remember the details actually, but I do remember that one day after returning home from work, I asked how how she felt, "terrible!" she exclaimed, with a smile. ? She went on to say the words that changed it all..."there is nothing wrong with me - I'm pregnant." Hello! Of course from that day to this my life has never been the same. Many things may happen between now and the end of forever, but I will always be a father. And that has changed me profoundly.
What if nothing is wrong? I mean, what if the angst that so many of us feel and talk about and whine about isn't because something is "wrong" with life? What if all of us, like Mary, have been overshadowed by God, inpregnated with some unique gift that God means to give the world through us. All of this mourning in life, how ironic if some or much of it was really morning sickness.
In Gen. 3:15 God says this speaking to the serpent, "I will put enmity between you and the woman and between your offspring and hers; he will crush your head, you will strike his heel." What does this mean for Eve (humanity)? What if it means this, "you will give birth to something, and it will kill that which is killing you."
This Christmas season as we remember and celebrate the birth of Christ, may we also consider the possibility that God has overshadowed, not just Mary, but each and every one of us. And that we all have something, special and unique that God wants to give to the world through us. This does not make us special. My wife didn't "knit" our children together in her womb. She just carried the miracle and gave birth to it.
However, once inpregnated, she had to give birth - or die. And I do know this, apart from realizing she was pregnant with a miracle, with something that would make the world a better place, she would have concluded she was sick. Something is wrong!
I believe God has overshadowed us all. He has something he wants to give birth to through us, and that carrying this miracle, giving birth to it, and nurturing it afterward we are participating in the restoration of His Kingdom. We are giving birth to something that will kill that which is killing us.
Can we believe this? That we are called to participate, to do as God did and get down in the mud to love people where they are. Can we believe this? That God counts us worthy to participate. I hope so. And I hope that we will find the faith to respond as Mary did, "I am the Lord's servant, may it be to me as you have said."
What if there is nothing wrong - what if you are pregnant?
Merry Christmas,
Didymus
Well, I do feel terrible, but I think pregnancy is unlikely! Then again, that's probably what Mary said.
This post is very apt for my work environment at the moment. My office moved to a new location last week and the process of moving brought all the office politics to the surface. Everyone is fighting and I'm in the middle of it, feeling terrible but hoping that I am doing some good down here in the mud.
Thanks Didymus.
Posted by: Philomena | December 13, 2007 at 05:24 PM